January 27, 2005
New Fridge
We got a new fridge today. The old one was slowly dying. First the ice-cream melted. The next day, the meat in the freezer was no longer hard. That day, we vacuumed the vents and turned up the coldness. The next day, things were a little better. But the day after that was worse. So we cleaned out the freezer--we cooked all the meat and gave away lots of stuff we didn't have immediate plans for. Then we hit six stores looking for a cheap fridge that would simultaneously fit in our kitchen while still being bigger than a dorm fridge. This limited us to 1 fridge per store. We found The Perfect Fridge, but decided to sleep on our decision. The next day was Sunday. The icecubes in the freezer were now melting and the fridge was noticably warmer. We decided to buy The Perfect Fridge, but the store doesn't open on Sundays. Monday, The Perfect Fridge is no longer on Sale, but I convince the salesman to give us the sale price anyway. The freezer no longer freezes anything. The Perfect Fridge will be delivered on Tuesday. Tuesday, the deliveryman's schedule conflicts with mine, so The Perfect Fridge will be delivered on Wednesday. Wednesday, The Perfect Fridge fails to show up. A phone call reveals that when you reschedule a delivery, they say that they will deliver it "tomorrow", but they actually schedule it for Sunday--a day on which, amy I remind you, they aren't open and thus don't do deliveries. Why this is SOP is a mystery to all involved, yet it remains their actual SOP. I get them to schedule it for Thursday, a day when they actually deliver things. Meanwhile, our fridge is just barely holding on. Thursday (today!) they finally deliver The Perfect Fridge. It is Perfect. (We'll see how long that lasts.) Thank God.
Recap
Previously in my Infertility story:
- I wasn't ready to have children. But then I was.
- Then I found out that I was infertile.
- I was in denial.
- I did research on different treatments.
- Adoption seemed to be the only option for having children. But I was paralyzed by self doubt.
- People said regrettable things to other people, and to me.
OK. Just wanted to get you guys caught up because I really do plan on finishing this.
January 14, 2005
Palantír security flaw
Elves Of Valinor Warn Of "Critical Security Flaw" In Palantír Browsers. Hee.
January 12, 2005
Nocturnal
I have been having a terrible time sleeping at night. I'll climb into bed and then lie there for two hours with sleep ever retreating from me. Then I'll take a sleeping pill and feel as alert and awake as ever. Maybe an hour or two after that, I'll fall into a restless sleep.
I'd say that I have insomnia, but I have no trouble falling asleep in the daytime. I'm extremely sleepy in the morning and afternoon and given a few moments of darkness and/or quiet inactivity, I'll drop right off. But as soon as the sun goes down, I become more and more alert despite my lack of sleep. After dinner it seems that I don't have a hope of going to sleep until 4AM.
I've been this way for over a week now, with only a few exceptional nights of decent sleep. Sleeping pills usually solve these problems for me, but they don't seem to be having any effect this time. I'm starting to get worried.
January 09, 2005
January 05, 2005
Today I feel horrible
I had a cold last week. But then I got better. But apparently not better enough to spend two hours in below freezing weather hauling around 50 pound boxes in a 3D tetris game (i.e. helping a friend load his moving truck).
Quiet Time
Yesterday, out of the blue, a friend of mine offered "Do you want me to watch Spark tomorrow morning for an hour or two?" My response was a no-brainer. The real question was what to do with the time. This morning I finally settled on going to Starbucks (we got gift cards in our stockings) and having a long quiet time there.
Amazingly, everything went as planned. I got a solid hour-and-a-half of prayer, mediation and journaling done. It was enough time to get beyond the normal clutter in my brain and really have quality "hangout" time with God. And of course I fell in love with Him all over again.
I know why I don't do this more often. My real question to myself is why I don't try to do this more often.
January 04, 2005
How the experiment went
Celebrating Christ's birth on New Years was better than trying to do it On Christmas, but not as good as I had hoped. I suspect it takes practice. Part of the problem was that we had left many presents at home when we visted family for Christmas. When we got home, we decided not to open them right away. We kept not opening them until New Years. So when we clebrated Christ's birth on New Years and also opened presents, well, it kind felt like we just delayed Christmas by a week.
Note to self: next year, be more disciplined about separating secular Christmas (and the associated gift opening) from spiritual Christmas.