July 06, 2004

Good and Bad

I haven't been blogging because I've been having tons of clusters. As a result, the only thing I think about are clusters, and thus the only thing I have to write about are clusters. And I'm damn tired of writing about clusters.

But here I am writing about clusters anyways.

I'm getting my butt kicked by these clusters. I'm getting 3 or 4 a day. If I don't treat them, they last all day. But I just don't have all that many meds. This morning I was just despondent. By 10 AM, I had had 3 clusters and I could not summon the will to get out of bed. How could I face the rest of the day feeling like this??? How could I face another endless day of pain?

But eventually I did get out of bed--the lure? watching Spark take his first swimming lesson. Fun for the whole family!

Also, we took Spark in to Yuen Lui to get his picture taken. My goodness is he photogenic! (And my goodness are those photos expensive!)

- wink [July 6, 2004 11:47 PM]
Comments

syndromes says:

Your ticks are similar to my depression in a way.

We're both annoyed by our respective demons (I don't know if you view yours in the same light in that sense) and as much as we'd like to talk about anything BUT them, it's difficult not to talk about something that in many ways tends to consume your life.

Dunno what my point is really, but when has that ever stopped me from saying something? :)

- syndromes [July 7, 2004 08:16 AM]

wink says:

Yeah, my clusters are a lot like your depression that way. And calling them demons seems totally appropriate to me.

What a sorry lot we are. All we do is talk about our stupid problems. How boring. At least we always know that we'll have at least one person reading each other's blogs, right?

- wink [July 8, 2004 08:26 PM]

syndromes says:

:)

I look forward to the day when you can read my blog and be excited for what the strides i'm making in my life.

Much rather have people reading it for fun than to make sure i'm still alive :/

- syndromes [July 8, 2004 11:32 PM]